I've been wanting to write this for a long time now, but I simply haven't been able to put what I want to say into words. What can I say for someone who's been there for me every moment of my life? What can I possibly write for someone who is not just an older brother- but a friend, philosopher, guide of sorts?
I remember you teaching me how to ride my first tricycle, and how I cried when you wouldn't get off. I remember walking hand-in-hand with you through the streets of New Alipore when I was just four. I remember you going out to play cricket in my skirt, thinking they were your shorts. I remember you acing the JUDE exam, and being known as "that fellow who wrote a poem for his essay". I remember you writing and directing your own play, and making a special mention of my chocolate cakes, onstage. I remember 22nd November, 2003, and how you became a man overnight. I remember watching Ma hold you as you had an epileptic fit in the wee hours of the morning, and worrying that we were going to lose you. I remember you getting the job in Ogilvy, and leaving familiar terrorities to brave the terrors of a new city.
And now I see you, with the life you've built up for yourself, enjoying work, life and love. I hear you telling me what you've cooked, and how you're running your own little household. Do you know how proud I am of you? How proud I feel when I think how you've grown up? When I say to someone, "Guppy? Oh yeah, he's my brother", I actually get a rush of delight.
You have always been so much more to than just an older sibling. You've been a mentor of sorts. An inspiration. Someone I could always turn to if needed. A friend I could take relationship advice from.
There are those who love being an only child, those who can't imagine having a brother or sister. Me- I cherish it. I love that you're in my life. I love that you can tease me, cheer me up with your sense of humour, and make Ma smile when she needs it.
Thank you for being the best older brother I could ever hope to have.